One more thing

My 6th day of Christmas Present, a little singing Santa.
Thanks mom and dad, I adore Ho Ho Ho!

Work is working again, and so am I.

We haven't even celebrated the Epiphany yet.

It is only the first Monday.

And I find that I already miss my own time, my home time.

I will be online less, you see. And have to work harder to make more time for me.


So it goes.


I am committed to organizing and moving my life forward.

I am committed to documenting my future as I see it.

I am committed to being a better me.


With that determination, I also leave you this. Another poem by the inimitable Wesley McNair -

What Became

What became of the dear
strands of hair pressed
against the perspiration
of your lover's brow
after lovemaking as you gazed
into the world of those eyes,
now only yours?

What became of any afternoon
that was so vivid you forgot
the present was up to its old
trick of pretending
it would be there
always?

What became of the one
who believed so deeply
in this moment he memorized
everything in it and left
it for you?

Really?

So, this new job is supposed to be better, because I am home more in the evenings. And that is TRUE.

But July is busy busy, and I don't seem to have time or energy to - garden. brainstorm opportunities for ds. find out how to get the paintings available for the crawl. do yoga. socialize. create. breathe.

Why not?
Working late on presentations. Thinking about executive interaction. Carefully considering politics over email. Trying to "add value" in the economic climate of the day. Having a high degree of concern and angst over mother-in-laws and more injuries. Wishing that I was not living in SUCH a community (and so, fretting, and fretting that I am fretting). Buying condos and the like with mom and dad. Trying to drive physical fitness. Taking time away from rlb if I come up to the studio at all, and that only at 10PM or later.

Egad.

Everyone wants something and I need some me time.

So, help is not on the way and I think I will put my mind to figuring it out.
Make the list of "things to do" that are WANT TOs instead of HAVE TOs. And do. One. A Day? A Week? Whatever works. Find time to create.